why did you change lilith?

damsel illuminating – in ways i cannot fathom

but to seek.

when deep in your muses,

you gave light, what brightness

a star evaporating

and burning so.

i thought you stood for a bedrock

unchanging,

a solace i could wrap my arms

around and stay safe.

of the paradise you had whispered

in dreams, like dreams parting

at day break –

i sought too for bridges

that could mend all time: imperfect.

with dots on your petticoat

i saw a bird on a fence – sing.

colored, nostalgic, unassuming,

all the best parts of you

littered into that gray caravan

walking along those yellow bridges

brought down by

a flood.

memories of you now made clear.

of what you did do.

and then it was a parting of the mist,

my short sighted vision –

that you will change, when the price was

high enough!

many a men to dine with,

to be with. sleep with. and it meant nothing.

even deception. for you too compromised,

and said – i was the unlucky one,

holding fervent a dream just a dream.

pop. you said.

pop. i said.

when i found that you had changed,

all these years – promises binding

to be let loose

in that rebellion

when you said, it was yours to have.

no matter what.

and you changed,

it was a price quite clear,

a transaction – like all things on earth,

mundane earth

and you said to me, don’t you know

my darling?

that’s all there is

in this wild utopia

changing scene by scene,

wave by wave.

and you adapted.

became who you are,

the world toast you –

riding those waves,

undeniably defiant! against the heavens.

they gossip behind your back,

when you’re standing at the top.

strike you down,

when luck has run out

that this is no quick way

for a home run – i cannot imagine

any other outcome then,

you’ve followed the ways of the world.

all just a transaction,

in a world dashing around

your petticoat

spotted with many dots

of – just being practical.

the same crowd,

that reflects your image.